January 10, 2026
Hi everyone. Good morning.
Today is January 10th, 2026, and it’s another beautiful day to be gorgeous—gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous.
This morning, I wanted to pause and do a gentle reflection. Lately, I’ve been leaning into meditation, especially during quiet weekend mornings, and today felt like one of those days where the sun coming out felt symbolic. A reminder to slow down. To breathe. To reflect.
And one of the things I’ve been thinking about deeply lately is friendship.
Who Knows You—All of You—and Still Stays?
As I’ve grown more comfortable with myself, as I’ve shared more openly about my struggles, my weaknesses, and the parts of me that aren’t polished or pretty, I’ve experienced a lot of loss.
It’s become clearer who my friends really are.
My truest friends are the ones who know me completely—the ones who have seen the worst parts of me, the messy parts, the parts I used to hide. They’re the ones who stayed even when I started sharing my truth more openly, even when I started building a platform, even when I started using my voice.
Lately, I haven’t felt a lot of support from friends when it comes to the content I’m creating, and while that hurts, it’s also been clarifying. It shows me how deep—or shallow—some relationships truly were.
So I want to ask you this:
How many people in your life truly know who you are—and are still there for you?
When I sit with that question, I realize I can count them on one hand. Maybe two. And honestly, that realization comes with both grief and gratitude.
Accountability, Apologies, and Grace
I know I’ve shared a lot about my darkest moments. I want to take accountability for that.
I’m sorry to the friends who felt overwhelmed by me.
I’m sorry if I expected too much when I was drowning.
I’m sorry for being “too much” during a time when I didn’t know how to survive my own thoughts.
Two years ago, I was in a place where waking up the next day felt optional. I was searching for relief anywhere I could find it.
I’m also sorry for falling in love with someone who couldn’t love me back—and for how deeply that broke me. I’m sorry for how lost I became after that. I’m sorry for not knowing how to cope with so much change all at once.
Losing people because I showed them who I really was has been one of the hardest parts of my healing journey. But it’s also taught me something powerful.
The Friends Who Stay Are Everything
I am endlessly grateful for my mom, my brother, a few close friends—and of course, Dots—who have seen me through my hardest seasons and are still here.
Friendships aren’t just about fun, travel, or shared memories. They’re about understanding. They’re about staying. They’re about choosing each other even when things get uncomfortable.
If I could tell my younger self anything, it would be this:
Invest deeply in your friendships.
Build relationships rooted in honesty, not just convenience.
Yes—go have fun. Go out. Travel. Live.
But what matters most are the people who know all parts of you and love you anyway.
Choosing Authenticity Over Approval
I’ve been creating more raw, emotional content lately because that’s who I am. I’m emotional. I overthink. I reflect deeply. And I’m finally allowing myself to share that openly.
Right now, my circle is small. I don’t have many friends. But the friends I do have matter deeply to me because they’ve seen me at my worst—and they’re still choosing to walk with me.
As I build this platform and pursue my dream of becoming an influencer with purpose—one who promotes authenticity, self-love, and truth—I know I won’t always be supported by the people I hoped would cheer the loudest.
And that’s okay.
Because I believe the people meant for me will find me.
It’s Never Too Late to Find Your Voice
At 37, I can honestly say: it’s never too late.
I used to wish I was more beautiful. I used to wish my body was different. I used to wish I was someone else.
Now? I’m content with who I am and proud of who I’m becoming.
I know my purpose now. I know what I want to share with the world. I want to show people that they’re allowed to live freely, love themselves deeply, and choose their own path—because no one can take that agency away from you.
When I rewatch my own videos, I see growth. I see courage. I see someone who kept going even when she was afraid.
Yes, I still feel fear.
Yes, I still experience anxiety.
And yes, I’m still working toward the life I dream of—traveling with my mom, building a meaningful life, creating something tangible from my vision.
But every step counts.
Celebrating the Ones Who Celebrate You
Later today, as we walked Dots along one of my favorite paths, I felt so much clarity and peace.
Not everyone is meant to stay in your life forever. And that doesn’t mean the connection wasn’t real—it just means seasons change.
What matters is this:
Celebrate the people who see you.
Celebrate the ones who hear you.
Celebrate the ones who understand you—even the parts you once felt ashamed of.
I may feel lonely sometimes, but I am rich in the love of the people who truly show up.
And for that, I am grateful.
Today is another beautiful day to be gorgeous.
Have a good day, you guys.
I love you.
Final Thoughts
I’m sharing my story not because it’s perfect—but because it’s real.
Somewhere out there, someone who is afraid to take the leap might see this and think, If she can do it, maybe I can too.
And that’s enough for me.
So here’s to choosing yourself.
Here’s to believing in your voice.
Here’s to taking the leap—even if you’re scared.
It’s another beautiful day to be gorgeous.
Have a good day, you guys.
I love you. 💛
Day in the life of a Filipina Nurse Practitioner 
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