Day in the life of a Filipina Nurse Practitioner

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January 12, 2026

Another Beautiful Day to Be Gorgeous

Hey everyone, good morning.
Today is January 12, 2026—and it’s another beautiful day to be gorgeous. Gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous.

This morning felt quiet and cold. I’m on my way to work, doing deep breaths because I didn’t sleep well last night. My mind was overthinking, revisiting things I thought I had already made peace with. I always say it’s okay to revisit the darkness from time to time—but not to stay there. Lately, though, it feels like the darkness lingered longer than I expected.

And maybe that’s okay too.

I think it’s just reminding me that I’m still healing. That I haven’t completely arrived at the version of myself I imagine yet. There’s still work to do. Still growth ahead. Still strength to build. Instead of discouraging me, these realizations are giving me that extra push to keep going—to actually work on my healing with more intention.

Even on the days I look tired.
Even on the days it’s cold.
Even on the days I don’t feel as positive as usual.

I’m really looking forward to traveling to the Philippines soon. I dream about gardening, being with my mom, and prioritizing the things that truly matter to me. I love planting seeds and watching things grow. My ultimate dream is a simple, sustainable life—maybe even a small farm where everything we need comes from one place.

These reflections feel like planting seeds too. I don’t know if all of them will grow. I hope they do. For now, I’m just allowing myself to dream without pressure.

Lately, I’ve also been thinking about why some people feel the need to bring others down. I try to move through life with understanding, kindness, and openness—but life hasn’t always been kind back. That reality has been heavy on my heart, and I’m learning how to protect my peace without closing myself off.

I’ll be honest: this journey of creating—these videos, these diaries—has been discouraging at times. It’s been almost seven months of consistently showing up, creating, sharing… and sometimes it feels like I haven’t made a dent. Like I haven’t really reached anyone.

But I have changed.

I see the growth in myself. I see the courage it takes to keep going. And as long as I’m still trying, I haven’t failed yet.

So I’ll keep going.

Thank you to the few who continue to watch—my mom, my brother, my aunt, and those quiet supporters who stay. I appreciate you more than you know. I still believe in the message I’m sharing: authenticity, presence, healing, and choosing a life that aligns with who you truly are.

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Lunchtime Diaries

Good afternoon. During my lunch break today, the anxiety crept back in. I’ve been questioning where I am in life and what comes next. There are things I can identify that cause my stress—but figuring out what to do about them feels overwhelming.

Part of me dreams of moving to the Philippines, traveling the world with my mom, and living simply. I’ve worked so hard to get where I am—beyond what I ever imagined for myself—but sustaining this life in its current form doesn’t feel aligned anymore.

I’m emotional. I’m a people pleaser. And right now, that combination feels exhausting.

I can’t take a full leap of faith yet. I still have loans to pay off, responsibilities to meet, and practical realities to honor. I want to get to a place where I’m debt-free, financially stable, and able to continue my work in a way that doesn’t cost me my mental health.

I know I need to invest more deeply in my healing—therapy, self-care, and learning how to exist without constantly burning out. Some days I feel confident and proud of how far I’ve come. Other days—like today—I question everything.

There hasn’t been much traction on this platform I’m trying to build. And while it makes me want to change things up, I don’t want to lose my authenticity. I don’t want to curate myself just to be more palatable.

I want you to see my real, unfiltered life.

This is the daily life of Jasmine—a Filipina nurse practitioner trying to live honestly, trying to heal, trying to grow. These videos and words are mostly unedited because that’s who I am. Raw. Unfiltered. Still figuring it out.

And in many ways, choosing myself like this goes against my people-pleasing tendencies. This—doing it for me—is healing.

I’m learning to believe in myself more. To trust my message. To trust that even if only one person connects with my truth, it matters.

I don’t have all the answers. I’m scared of the unknown. I overthink. I question my decisions. But I’m learning to take ownership of my choices and to honor who I am becoming.

If I could live simply, stay close to the people I love, continue meaningful work, and inspire authentic living without burning out—that would be everything.

I don’t know how possible that is yet.
But I’m still here.
Still trying.
Still planting seeds.

Thank you for reading.
Thank you for witnessing my truth.

Today is January 12, 2026—and it’s still a beautiful day to be gorgeous.