March 2026
Hi everyone. Good morning.
We are on our way to work.
Today I’m taking you along for another day in the life of a nurse practitioner in San Francisco, California. The mornings have been feeling a little lighter lately. Maybe it’s the sunshine, maybe it’s the mindset shift, or maybe it’s just choosing to start the day by reminding myself:
It’s another beautiful day to be gorgeous.
That little phrase started as something playful in my vlogs, but it has slowly become part of my daily mindset practice. Sometimes you have to speak positivity into existence, even when your brain wants to spiral into overthinking.
And if you’ve been following my YouTube journey, you already know — I’m a chronic overthinker.
But before we get into that… we made it.
4.1K watch hours.
You guys… I cannot believe it.
The YouTube Journey (A Little Delulu… But Maybe Not)
I started my YouTube journey back in June 2025. At that time, I had a different channel. Life happened, things changed, and eventually I had to abandon that channel. It’s still out there somewhere on the internet with a few videos, but I stopped posting on it.
Starting over wasn’t easy.
But in December 2025, I made a decision.
I started a new channel:
Filipino Nurse Practitioner Diaries.
And I made one promise to myself:
Post daily. Show up authentically. Say the mantra.
“It’s another beautiful day to be gorgeous.”
That phrase became a small daily reminder to stay positive, focus on what I can control, and stop letting my thoughts run wild with anxiety.
Because if I’m being completely honest — overthinking has always been one of my biggest struggles.
Learning to Manage Anxiety
In many of my recent vlogs, I’ve talked about how my mind tends to spiral.
I overthink situations.
I overanalyze conversations.
I question whether I’m doing enough.
And sometimes that turns into anxiety.
But lately, I’ve been trying to slow down and actually observe those feelings instead of ignoring them.
I’m learning to recognize when stress is creeping in and taking a step back.
That’s why I’ve been more intentional about things like:
• Taking actual lunch breaks
• Stepping outside for fresh air
• Going for walks
• Practicing meditation
• Doing yoga
Even just five minutes of deep breathing in the morning helps me reset before heading into a busy clinic day.
Many of you have sent me messages saying that hearing me talk openly about burnout, mental health, and imposter syndrome as a nurse practitioner has helped you feel less alone.
And honestly, that means everything to me.
Because the truth is — I still feel anxious sometimes.
Imposter Syndrome as a Nurse Practitioner
Even now, working as a nurse practitioner, I sometimes feel that little voice in my head saying:
“Do you really know enough?”
That’s imposter syndrome.
But I’ve learned that being a good clinician doesn’t mean knowing everything.
It means:
• Being willing to learn
• Asking questions
• Consulting colleagues
• Admitting when you don’t know something
Medicine is a team sport.
And I think recognizing our limits actually makes us better providers and safer clinicians.
Being Honest About My Body Right Now
Another thing I want to be honest about — my physical health.
After my recent trip to the Philippines, I gained some weight.
And you know what?
I don’t regret it.
While I was there, I let go of a lot of stress. I let go of dieting, expectations, and restrictions. I just enjoyed the moment, spent time with family, and ate the food that reminds me of home.
Filipino food will always have my heart.
But now that I’m back, I’m trying to find balance again.
Not extreme dieting.
Not punishing workouts.
Just moderation.
More walks.
More yoga.
More mindfulness.
I actually recorded a yoga session yesterday, but when I watched the footage back… I didn’t feel confident enough to post it.
And that’s me being completely honest.
Sometimes our self-image is influenced by what we think a “healthy” person is supposed to look like.
Right now, I’m still working through that.
But this vlog — and this blog — is about being raw and authentic.
So this is me.
Lunchtime Diaries
Good afternoon everyone.
We’re doing lunchtime diaries at the park today.
It has been a busy morning at work, and I also did an interview today for a pre-operative nurse practitioner position.
The interview was actually really chill. It was more informational than anything else, and I learned more about what the position would look like.
But now I’m in a bit of a reflective space.
I’m not sure if it’s the right fit.
There might be a group interview coming up, so I have to decide if I even want to move forward with the process.
And honestly?
I think I already know my answer.
My Dream Job
Right now I work in primary care with a focus on HIV care, LGBTQ+ care, and gender-affirming care.
And I genuinely love what I do.
This is actually my dream job.
So when I started thinking about potentially leaving, I had a moment where I asked myself:
“Why would I walk away from something I worked so hard to get?”
And the truth is — I don’t think I want to.
Sometimes opportunities show up not because you’re meant to take them, but because they’re meant to help you realize how grateful you are for what you already have.
Trader Joe’s Lunch Break
Today’s lunch is pesto chicken pasta.
Super simple.
The chicken is from Trader Joe’s — it’s already pre-marinated, so I just had to cook it. Easy meal prep.
Lately I’ve also noticed that I’ve been feeling hungrier than usual, which might just be my body recalibrating after travel.
And honestly?
This pasta is really good.
Also, important question of the day:
Which one is better? With glasses or without glasses?
Unfortunately I need my glasses to read… but right now I’m just enjoying the sunshine and taking slow deep breaths.
My Delulu Moment
Last night I had a little delulu moment.
I started thinking:
“What if I actually get monetized soon?”
And then this morning I checked my YouTube analytics.
4.1K watch hours.
Which means that within the next few days, once everything is verified, I should be eligible to apply for YouTube monetization.
And for a second I thought:
“Wait… is this actually happening?”
Maybe I’m not delulu after all.
Maybe believing in yourself — even when things feel uncertain — actually matters.
Maybe the message matters.
Maybe the story matters.
And maybe showing up every day as your authentic self is enough.
What’s Next
Moving forward, I want to be more intentional with my content.
More:
• Yoga videos
• Wellness routines
• Honest nurse practitioner diaries
• Mental health conversations
• Lifestyle and balance
I’m also thinking about taking actual yoga classes so I can learn proper technique and improve my practice.
I haven’t signed up for a gym yet.
I haven’t booked the classes yet.
But I will.
I’m just slowly building the motivation and energy to get there.
Especially since I’m going to Hawaii in a couple of weeks.
So maybe for now I’ll continue with my DIY yoga sessions at home until my schedule settles down.
Gratitude
To everyone watching my vlogs, reading these entries, sending messages, and sharing your own stories with me:
Thank you.
Your support means more than you know.
And if you’re also navigating anxiety, burnout, career decisions, or self-doubt — just know that you’re not alone in that process.
We’re all figuring it out one day at a time.
And remember:
It’s another beautiful day to be gorgeous. 🌞
Day in the life of a Filipina Nurse Practitioner 
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