A Tired Morning and a Beautiful Day
Today is March 9th, 2026, and it’s another beautiful day to be gorgeous, stunning, amazing, and happy—even if the day started with exhaustion.
This morning began while I waited for my Waymo ride to work. The weather looked like it was going to be gorgeous, and I could hear the birds chirping around me. Normally that would feel peaceful, but today I mostly just felt tired. The kind of tired that doesn’t go away after a full night of sleep.
Lately I’ve been sleeping a lot, yet waking up feeling drained. It’s starting to make me wonder if something else is going on with my body. Maybe it’s something simple like vitamin D deficiency, especially living in San Francisco where sunshine isn’t always guaranteed.
I think it’s time to schedule a checkup and run some labs just to understand what’s going on.
Looking Forward to Hawaii and Some Sunshine
One thing I’m really looking forward to is my upcoming trip to Hawaii at the end of March for a conference.
The conference runs in the mornings—from around 7 AM to 11 AM—which means I’ll have the rest of the day free. I’m imagining myself spending that time at the beach, soaking in the sun, doing yoga, stretching, and simply resting.
Maybe that sunshine will give me the vitamin D and reset that my body seems to be craving right now.
Daylight Savings and the Struggle to Wake Up
Today was also the first morning after daylight savings, and I definitely felt it.
When the clock said 7:48 AM, my body felt like it was 6:48 AM. That one-hour shift made it surprisingly difficult to wake up. I ended up running a little late, but thankfully I wasn’t too worried about it.
Sometimes you just have to move through the morning slowly and trust that your energy will catch up later.
Reconnecting With My Body
During my commute, I started reflecting on how disconnected I’ve been from my body lately.
I haven’t been going to the gym or practicing yoga the way I used to. Yoga, especially, has always helped me slow down and understand what my body is trying to communicate.
It teaches breathing, awareness, and patience.
Right now I think that’s exactly what I need. If I can start moving my body again—whether through yoga, stretching, or light workouts—I know it will help boost those endorphins and happy hormones.
And once those start flowing, everything else tends to follow.
The Inner Battle With Body Image
Another truth I’ve been facing lately is how I feel about my body.
Sometimes I struggle to even look at myself in the mirror. It’s strange because logically, I know that I’m beautiful. I know that I’m gorgeous. But sometimes there are these negative voices that creep into my mind and tell me otherwise.
It’s painful when that happens.
But I’m reminding myself that confidence often comes from action. Taking care of my health, moving my body, and nurturing myself will slowly rebuild that relationship with my body again.
Daily Vlogging and Finding Balance
I’ve been posting daily vlogs for a while now, but yesterday I didn’t vlog because I spent the entire day driving from San Diego back to San Francisco.
It was a long drive, and the person I was with isn’t comfortable being recorded. I wanted to respect that.
Skipping a day made me realize something important: maybe I don’t have to vlog every single day.
Creating content has been meaningful for me, but I also want to respect my energy, my privacy, and the people around me. Moving forward, I might shift to one or two vlogs per week instead of daily uploads.
Sometimes balance is more sustainable than consistency.
Lunch Diaries at the Park
Later in the afternoon, I stepped outside for lunch at the park.
The weather was beautiful—sunny, bright, and full of people enjoying the day. I love seeing people outside, walking around, talking with friends, or just sitting in the sun.
For lunch, I had leftovers from our San Diego trip: beef broccoli with rice.
I wasn’t very hungry, but I reminded myself that food is still important for energy. After having coffee and sitting in the sunshine for a bit, I started to feel more awake.
Sometimes the smallest things—sunlight, fresh air, and a warm meal—can make a huge difference.
Gratitude for My Growing YouTube Community
I also want to say how grateful I am for everyone who has been watching, liking, commenting, and sharing my videos.
My watch hours are slowly growing, and even though the growth feels gradual, I can see the progress happening over time. That makes me really happy.
Some people have suggested that I start a Patreon, which is definitely something I’ve thought about. But I don’t think I’m quite there yet. I want to continue growing the community organically before taking that step.
Still, it’s exciting to know that people are connecting with the content.
Checking My Health and Running Labs
Because of the fatigue I’ve been feeling, I’ve also scheduled a doctor’s appointment to check my labs.
It’s been a while since I last checked them, and it feels like the responsible thing to do. Sometimes our bodies send subtle signals when something needs attention.
Instead of ignoring it, I want to listen.
Career Anxiety and the Big Interview
Another thing weighing on my mind right now is an upcoming job interview.
It’s with a company that I once considered my dream company. But lately, the thought of the interview has been giving me anxiety. I haven’t had much time to prepare, and now I’m questioning whether I should move forward with it or withdraw my application.
Part of me wonders if it’s an opportunity I shouldn’t miss.
Another part of me wonders if protecting my peace is more important right now.
Overthinking at its finest.
Unlimited PTO — What Does It Really Mean?
Something else I’ve been thinking about is the concept of unlimited PTO.
Technically, my current role offers flex time, and it’s supposed to allow for more flexibility with travel and time off. But I’m still trying to understand how flexible it actually is.
Many companies say they offer unlimited PTO, but there can still be unspoken expectations. You might technically be allowed to take time off, but there’s always that quiet question in the back of your mind:
How much is too much?
I want to travel more. I want to take time to recharge. But I’m also aware of how workplace culture can shape how comfortable people feel actually using those benefits.
So the question still lingers in my mind:
Unlimited PTO… what does it really mean?
Dreaming About Future Travel
Beyond Hawaii, I’ve been thinking about future trips too.
I’d love to take a vacation later this year—maybe in the fall or winter. One place that keeps calling my name is Japan. I want to redo my trip there properly and also visit my brother, my nephew, and my niece.
That thought alone brings me a lot of joy.
Ending the Day With a Walk
Before heading home, I made a promise to myself: if the weather was nice, I would walk instead of rushing back.
So I did.
I walked slowly, enjoying the sunshine and the calmness of the day. Sometimes healing doesn’t come from big breakthroughs or dramatic changes.
Sometimes healing looks like:
A quiet walk.
A warm meal.
Birds chirping in the morning.
Sunlight on your face.
And learning how to listen to your body again.
Today, that felt like enough. ✨
Day in the life of a Filipina Nurse Practitioner 
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